Friday, December 23, 2011

For PMR students!!

Asslammualaikum and Hola readers!!

alhamdulilah, finished my final exam on 4.30pm just now.. how is it? as usual, goreng kentang lenyek.. hahaha.. this paper really make me palpitation with tons of topics need to cover and only 2 hours to goreng? seriously, sakit tangan cheq tau!!

anyway, i forgot that yesterday was PMR's result day.. hope not to late to CONGRATS TO YOU ALL!! for those who passed with flying colour, congratz again!! for those who not, hey, its not the end of your life, get the grip, you still had chance to prove yourself..

yes, PMR is one of the test to guide you which course you take, yet SPM is the real tinge.. doesnt mean you cant perform or get straight A in your UPSR or PMR, you cant score SPM.. the important things are HARD WORK, HARD WORK, HARD WORK and BLESS FROM ALLAH AND FAMILY.. NEVER GIVE UP!! orite fellas?!

finally, please please please never assume form 4 is honeymoon time.. no no no sire.. form 4 is crucial time, big time.. imagine you had to cover all the syllabus within 2 years and the exams are essay man!! hahaha.. no MCQ like PMR style.. so, yeah my advice *pinjam dari anic* study hard for form 4, master the basic, form 5 you will smiling to go through.. anyway, WELCOME TO FORM 4.. new style of learning and answering exam paper.. wink3..

till then..
thankz for reading..

foot note: i hate addmath and physic.. sorry.. wahahaha..
another foot note: xhabis2 lagi dia.. bosan tul.. :P

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

2 good news VS 1 bad new! Geee

Assalammualaikum and hello readers..

A very quick update.. one battle done.. alhamdulilah.. how is it? dont ask.. my usual comment is "Goreng je" hahaha.. no seriously.. :P

anyway, good and bad news coming.. the good one is our selected industrial pharmaceutical company accepted us to do our 1-month attachment there, when my juniors had fabulous HOLIDAY!! the only things to do is do the CV *i wonder why* maybe they want to get more resume so that when they had shortage pharmacist, they will call us? ok2, thats weird to think.. hahaha..

another good one is my mother got new hp!! great!! good for you mum.. apparently, her 5-years hp already "hang" and cant detect the simcard.. my daddy who are pretty annoying with us, his children that keep constant call him to get reach mummy gave 1K for the new one and mention thats for mummy's next birthday.. so mummy's children bought her touch screen samsung one.. can you imagine how cute elder people who used to old version hp to learn new touch screen stuff? of course same concept but still had troublesome to "tap" as my mummy and daddy did confess they got bigger hand.. i thought adult do have bigger hand compare to baby!!

the bad new is that once we finished our paper tomolo at 12pm, we had class at 1 to 3pm for our Clinical presentation.. the purpose is to discuss the format, report and presentation, etc.. the only thing crossed in my mind when im being told by my class rep--> "why not doing the class last week when we had pretty much time to do that?" choii la wei.. on Friday we will have terrible paper la wei.. i can imagine my Vet lecturer sengih2 .. aiyoo!!

have nice day fellas..

till then..
thankz for reading..

Friday, December 16, 2011

The War Begin!! Final Exam Sem 7!! ^O^

Assalammualaikum and Hello readers!!

i got class this morning.. once settle, my lecturer gave ultimate tips for our final:

1) bless from ALLAH, God--->whatever religion you believe
2) prayers from your family and parents
3) prayers from yourself and the hardwork, hardwork and hardwork..

what? you think my lecturer will at least give some tips for our coming final exam? in your dream man!! hahaha.. for entire 7 sem and one more sem to go, very rarely like once a blue moon, my lecturers will give the tips.. we had to learn and earn it in the hardway.. muhahaha

so yup, settle with class, run like a maniac to photocopy the last minute extra notes *since im the class-rep, i wish im not!! hahaha.. then circle the campus area like crazy to pass the notes to classmates, pre-registered my subjects for next year and get my exam slip..

finally after tons of paper to take like one sem with 9-10 papers, i only had two papers next sem--research project 2 and clinical pharmacy 2.. yes2, less paper but more burden.. ngeh3..

anyway, my final exam start with:

20/12----> drug abuse and counseling
22/12----> clinical pharmacy 1
23/12----> veterinary therapeutic products

29/12----> my clinical presentation

MAY THE BEST WON!! *sengal*

till then..
thank you for reading..

foot note: my lecturer doesnt mention about "friends" in his tips.. but if you think in wide scope, friends cant help you in exam time or when you had problem, because at the end of the day, you had to deal by your own.. hahaha.. but, seriously, yes, few friends may support and be there for you when you need them.. i got few and im glad to know them.. so find a positive good friends yar fellas.. not someone who make you down literally.. :)

Thursday, December 15, 2011

2nd Asia Pacific Pharmacy Education Workshop 2011.. ^_^

Assalamualaikum and Very Good Morning to you guys!!

Alhamdulilah.. another day passed.. yes, there were few negative things happened within this week but it part and parcel of my life.. when you remember it, you will feel annoying, so just let it got.. forget it, not forgive? hahaha.. joking!!

anyway, this is actually the last week's story.. so on 8th and 9th December 2011, my beloved School of Pharmacy had organized a wonderful big event of 2nd Asia Pacific Pharmacy Education Workshop and Conference 2011..

the first time Pharmacy Education been organized was last year at Penang.. this event collaborate with USM, MQA and United Nation of University with co-organizer, our Josai University.. here's the link if you guys interested--->

basically, for these two days workshop and four days of conference actually a year planning.. and the students are practically involved either as committee or as audience.. but, as far i been brief, everyone participate.. for my batch, we involved the workshop days.. all the task already been distribute through our mentor and this event had GERMs.. not germs bacteria.. its more to mark points that show how active you are as student during the programmed and at the end of you graduation, you will get 2 certificates.. one is you degree certificate, another one is your GERMs certificate..

my lecturers did snapped a lot of pictures of us, the students.. maybe they are so happy after a year of effort and hard work planning the event, the burden finally over, and we the students will handle the flow during the workshop and conference since most of them are involved as participants and speaker.. hahaha..

here's few pictures:

the first day, registration time at early morning..
the first day was really hectic..
the registration, ushering the guest if they want to go somewhere else, etc..
all my lecturers look pretty and handsome..
especially when they wear coat..

this was my second day of workshop actually..
i was wearing purple kebaya for my first day..
not so hectic for the second day, most the guests already know the area..

the workshop held at our Hall of MSU for two days..
the conference held at Renaissance Hotel, Kuala Lumpur..

i dont have the chance to go inside the hall on the first day, need to stand by outside the hall..
but for the second day, i able to do it after the morning tea-break and almost closing ceremony time.. :)

i able to rush back to level 10 at the lab for my Hematology Screen Test after the lunch time on the first day..
organized by one of my lecture, Miss L collaborate with Hosp Ampang for their research..
i get free test for FBC, Thallesemia, Anemia, etc..
FREE you know, when it actually cost rm300++ for that test..
when my friend knew i did this test, they asked "you want to get married is it?"
im a bit shocked, "doesnt mean we can test it only if we want to get married, you should know and aware about your health "
people's minded.. closed like a box.. hmmm..

anyway, thats about last week.. so basi story already ha? geee.. for this week, i got daily 2-hour classes, i know its not worth it but my Vet lecturer need to finish the subject and marked our presentations and assignment.. my CP presentation been postponed with new format.. apparently, i dont understand the format for our report, need to see professor tomorrow.. aiyoo..

thats all for now..
thankz for reading..

foot note: got the looong message from my future-doctor friend regarding my back pain.. now she scared me with the medical terms.. hahaha..

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Know it at last!!

Assalamualaikum and Hello readers..

"Don't Speak"

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

im pretty sure everyone know this half-lyrics? from No Doubt, Dont Speak.. yar, famous long time ago.. i know every single words.. somehow these stuck in my hard-drive.. anyway, this will be the last entry for myself regarding that stuff.. im still mad? disappointed? ok2, whatever.. readers doesnt visit here to read all the rattling ha?

but guess what, not one, but TWO!! ok2, stop it.. but anyway, thankz ha.. you guys really taught me the respect from your point of view.. no no, thankz, no need to explain.. its more hurt when you guys explained it.. we been met but to know people characteristics are difficult when you only see each other for what, once, twice?

i know hows the feeling to watch the number reduce, thats why im not doing to anyone even im not satisfied.. but you guys taught me to do that..

ok2, no hard feeling.. case closed.. cheerio!! have a good weekdays fellas.. im sure im not.. so hectic as usual!!
till then..

Thursday, December 8, 2011

The passion is gone?

Assalammualaikum and hope a good day readers..

i do blog-walking to those blogs that i followed.. once they update, i will be silent reader.. but today, i feel disappointed.. i dont know how to describe but it make me almost lose my passion to write..

when i post a very angry entry without mention any name, and im not referring to anyone, someone will start attack me.. but when they post the same thing, i dont do anything because i now that is your blog and you want to express yourself..

im not close with you but from my observation and when i comment at your FB, sometime we had the same thought.. so the statement came from yours make me feel like you pretend for all this time??

and im just confused why im sooo in-to that your statement when i know you dont know me at all, only a FB and blog.. the reality we never met although we come from the same institution.. so, yar, thankz for make me know you better.. no hard feeling but i will put barrier between us..

hand note: no wonder my seniors advised me not to close with the juniors.. thats sad..

They can talk..

Assalammualaikum and Hello readers..

im not in good mood but not too bad either..
im in neutral mode..
the only thing i can say at the moment is that they can talk, write anything they want..

thankz for make me understand you better..
ill put the barrier..
no worries.. :)

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Quick update this week!! ^-^

Assalamualaikum and Hello readers!!

A very good day fellas!! already December ha? few more weeks to go, 2011 will be gone, and warm welcome of 2012.. :) a very quick update for this week.. im a bit late in my so-called schedule.. hahaha..

things already done:
  • research proposal presentation done with minor comment regarding my material *need to add to make it look nice-erk?*and yes, i should emphasis the IN VITRO, and ignore the potency and efficacy.. *sir, you did make me confuse that day* hahaha
  • already submit the logbook research and the proposal.
  • started booking the lab for our experiment.. from level 14 to level 13 to level 9 and back to level 14 and down to level 9

in progress:

  • class vet for everyday at 4pm.. *thankz sir* and presentation and 2 assignment tomorrow and next week and settle all the syllabus by next week.. *sir, in case you forgot, i need to remind you that our final exam is next 2 weeks, thankz!* :P
  • our Asian Pharmacy Conference organized by our School of Pharmacy held on this Thursday and Friday and the rehearsal will be tomorrow.. *or today*
  • my clinical pharmacy presentation will be held next week.. *im not doing the slides yet* great!!
  • clinical report must be submitted one week during final exam.. *duuh ?!!*
  • start my lab experiment as soon as possible.. ooh yarr, i forgot, i got homework to do regarding my Molecular Weight sample.. *like i dont have any things to do* :P
  • progress for my industrial attachment January next year? - need to ask my leader..

i think thats all i can think at the moment.. i already jeng.. you know jeng? like blur, so many things to do.. will update later yar..

till then..

thankz for reading..

hand note: 2 days in palpitation.. used to bring my blackie that currently at cameron highland.. tomorrow and the day after tomorrow need to drive new blackie.. scary!!!

Friday, December 2, 2011

Finally!! All done!! ^_^ Part 1

Assalamualaikum and Well Hello Readers!! Finally, all done!! a month of hectic and drowsy life.. no no no sire, im not taking any drugs that can cause drowsiness.. but the busyness make my biologic clock in damage.. geee..

Alhamdulilah, all my hard works, piles of tears, tons of pressure and depression, i survived during my first clinical attachment and my research proposal presentation.. missing of one month's story, pretty lots to cover ha.. where should i start?!!

orite2.. we settle down with clinical experience first ha.. im currently sem 7, so basically clinical pharmacy is one of my subject, theory-in class, and clinical-at hospital.. i had two choices which is HSB and HTAR and we will exchange for our next clinical.. so during my attachment, i been posting to 4 departments with guidance from 4 pharmacists also known as preceptor..

to summarize my posting:
1) first department was female medical ward.. my preceptor is cute Miss C.. Private & Confidential is crucial yar.. hahaha.. so my preceptor randomly choose the cases and distribute among our three.. we had 2 groups with 3 students each.. so, my first case is Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disorder (COPD).. in case you guys interested, go to Uncle Google and online the GOLD guideline for COPD.. in these guideline, you guys will understood the management and therapy for this disease.. but of course, GOLD is one of the guideline been used..

once i get the case, i will start "rebut" the computer available to clerk the case.. since HSB is a IT basis, all the profile data, medication, etc can be access from computer.. is good ha? but still got tricks, the computers are not enough, is ok to share, but derrr seriously, you had to stick to that computer if you dont want to lose your place.. hahaha..

clerking means to fill up the CP1 and CP2 form which consist all the patient's detail, his/her past medical and medication history, the compliance and the diagnosis, lab values and the current medication.. then, i had to start find the Pharmaceutical Care Issues in terms of the medication-got interaction or not, side effect, the dosage correct or not, monitor the markers/parameters, follow up, etc..

everyday we had meeting with our preceptor, discuss the case and yup been questioned and got tons of homework.. not to mention, i still need to complete my research proposal that time.. sorry for not sharing the case in details yar.. i can conclude that most of the patients in medical ward suffering with cardiovascular disease and diabetes mellitus.. thats the high percentage of condition among patients..

i also had experienced involved in ward round and grand round, listening to their discussion and involved with the counseling done by my preceptor..

2) next department was infectious disease ward and my preceptor is Miss J.. my case was Tuberculosis Meningitis with few underlying condition.. underlying condition means patients also suffered with other disease besides TB.. and yes, we had to find the guideline, compared the current management with the guideline..

of course when you already Full Registered Pharmacist (FRP) and experience more than 2 years, you will remember most of the guideline by heart compared the students like me.. muhahahaha.. and yup, the process repeated and during our final discussion, we will summarize our case, come out with PI and the appropriate intervention.. did i mention, i also struggling with my research proposal that time? geee

3) the third posting was surgical ward and my preceptor is Miss T.. this ward is totally different with my last 2 wards.. last two wards is medical and more drugs concern.. for this ward, yes we do still concern for the drug but as prophylaxis also known as prevention compared to therapeutics or therapy.. as well as extra knowledge of Parenteral Nutrition..

so my patient's case is basically had motor vehicle accident (MVA) and been admitted to surgical ward due to possibility of bleeding in abdomen.. so yar, its really new case with addition of PN which i almost forgot!! really bad student!! hahaha.. what a bit different procedure i had to go through.. but the concept is same.. forgot to mention that my preceptor is clinical pharmacist and tpn pharmacist as well.. you know how rare tpn pharmacist available in Malaysia? and yup, still survive.. did i mention i still open my notebook every night to finish up my research? ok!! my bad, its the third time i mention it!!

4) final posting is male medical ward and my precpetor is Miss P.. she talk very soft, really need to listen carefully.. my case was Nephrotic Syndrome Secondary To Diabetic Nephropathy.. since it is medical ward, the process same like my first posting.. i also had ward round and grand round and counseling as well.. is really good case with renal impairment that i need to concern..

to summarize all, all my patients been discharge with good progress.. my lecturers did attend our final discussion twice and they did asked a lot of questions!! walawei!! and finally i can correlate what i been studied for the past 3 years and half with the reality of patient's condition.. i learned a lot of things!! seriously, its totally different with theoretically and practically.. and im survive.. despite i had to wake up at 5.30 am to get ready and reach home around 6pm, or when im stuck at traffic jam, i only reach home around 7.30pm, and only went to bed after finishing my task -the research, the study, the case, etc-

not to mention lack of rest on weekend since 4 weekends in a row im off traveling to Kuantan, Perlis, Genting Highland and another trip to Perlis.. and thats story will continue later.. :)

till then fellas..
thankz for waiting and reading..

Sunday, November 13, 2011


Hey readers..
currently the owner of this blog is pretty busy with her Clinical at Sg Buloh Hospital.. including the case report, clerking, monitoring, follow-up and yup, the HORRIBLE TIME OF FUTURE PHARMACIST is LOOKING FOR PHARMACEUTICAL CARE ISSUE (PCI).. the discussion with Full Registered Pharmacist (FRP) every evening.. *sampai awal, balik lambat*
not to mention her current research proposal and the presentation..
she need to breath and have a good rest since she had fever for 3 days already and back pain..

p/s:she will update a lot of stuff later! please be patience.. ngeh3

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

My bag's collection---> Past and Present.. :)

Hello2 there.. been a while missing in action.. starts from Deepavali till yesterday, pretty occupied.. Happy Deepavali/Diwali to Indians.. hope you guys had a blast day celebrating it.. :) ooh ya, of course, congratz to Nogori Sombilan for being the winner against Terengganu team.. i really not up-to-date regarding the football since im not so into football.. i prefer rugbi.. :)

my Open Sale at FB still on.. please2 have a look there.. its new/not been used stuff/once or twice stuff been used and the price is negotiable.. :)

ok, back to the real entry now.. i had something to share with you guys for soo long, yet due to constrain time/source/busy/forgot *sigh*, only now i had the chance to post.. :) i love bags and shoes.. who doesnt? ngeh3..

i bought this from Body Glove when i went to Penang Matriculation..
been a loyal serve for a long time..

recently, the strip already koyak, been rest for a while.. :)

Align Center my brother bought this for me..
i used to keep my big lappy Acer Aspire as well as act as my backpack since i regularly travel to Kelantan, Kuantan, and God-knows-wherelse..

i bought this at Padang Besar..
i dont know why but i do love the red white stripe..

i bought this from my friend's mum..
her mum is a dealer..
its pretty cute, with combination colour of white and purple..
its not cost a fortune, but i love it and use it till the colour fade..
oh yes, my mum asked me to find a new one since the colour change from white to grey.. *embarrassing*

this is my latest bag bought in this early year..
i like the design, simple..
and yup, im currently Puma collectors start with shoes, bags.. :)

i also bought this one at the same time..
used for my NPSC 2011..

i bought this at Point B Summit..
its costly but since im a good buyer, i bought it with 70% discount during the grand opening of Point B.. :)
how good i am?

a little secret..
i cant travel without this small bag..
inside it:
soft cotton
MAC eyeshadow
MAC brush
lens boxes (2 boxes since my eyes had different powers)
purple brooch a gift from my syg
night and day cream from Aura Maya (its good for my skin)
NanoWhite eye brightener
a full small box of my ribbon's collections
a comb (never forget to bring and use you own comb)

my daddy bought this for me..
at Vintage Shop at Kota Bharu, Kelantan..
my mummy are madly in love with Vintage and during that time, my dad saw this bad and bought for me..
so convenient..
looks small but can keep my telekong, my notebook ASUS, my file, my purse, my car key, my baby lotion, my small towel..
i used this bag during my Pharmacy Practice IV at HTAR for the whole attachment..

my brother bought this for me..
as my Hari Raya's gift..
from Maple, Sunway Pyramid..
i love it..
since i dont have handbag anymore, i really exited to have this..
its purple!!

another little secret..
the inside of it..
Silky White 2-way Foundation
Dettol Instant Hand Sanitizer (i love the smell)
Maybelline Volume Express Turbo Boost Mascara
Maybelline Lip Gloss
Elianto Eyeliner, Black (i love the colour)
2 pearl bracelets (very convenient when your mum asked you to join for any events in last minute)
hair clips
hair band (i prefer this one rather than the getah one)

yup, thats all.. :) i think will share about my shoes.. but it takes time since i had pretty much collection of shoes..

till then..
thank you for reading..

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Birhday Celebration!! woha!!

Hey readers!! another birthday celebration!! in my family, we rarely had a birthday celebration.. but for this year, we practically celebrate most of the birthdays, excluding my first brother, who toooo busy at Bintulu offshore and my syg, since he was too far 400km from the planner which is me..

the early year we already celebrated both my parent's birthday at once, despite my dad's date is August.. :) my second brother's birthday is September, on weekend.. we successfully did the surprise party for him.. GOTCHA!!! planned by his girlfriend and im being her evil-assistant.. ngeh3..

the picts before the surprise party:

all the ballons bought at Balloons Party at USJ 10, Subang Jaya..
they arrange it and fill the balloons with helium with affordable price..

there are different types of balloons..
yup, i had no idea about different types of balloons available in market..
you see the words printed?
that's the printed balloons, rm2.80-3.00 if not mistaken..
you see the celoreng2 printed in yellow and green balloons?
that's the balloons cost rm6-7..
the others balloons were normal one cost around rm1.50-2.00 if not mistaken..

the ultimate balloons ever.. :)
the biggest and expensive one among the other balloons we bought..
the SMURF!!

the birthday cake..
since my brother loved the angry bird and car, his girlfriend asked the baker to do this design..
bought these two from the same shop.. :)

the simple deco..
his girlfriend and i had 1 hour and 30 minutes to setup everything including get the cake, the balloons, etc while my mummy and my brother went to Puchong, bought accessories for our new home.. (85% already done)

the meals were nasi dagang, gulai ayam, acar, and fresh orange..
very simple.. :) seriously..

do you guys knows, the balloons filled with helium will last for a week, while the big SMURF balloon last for 8 hours..

i also just found out about that.. :)
everyday is a learning process.. ngeh3..

till then..
thankz for reading..

foot note: my terrible grammar.. im a bit tired.. forgive me.. otak sudah weng!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Exam on the house!!

Midsem exam for my sem 7 start tomolo..
tuesday: clinical pharmacy 1- 9am to 11am
wednesday: drug abuse - 9am to 11am
tuesday: veterinary therapeutic products

my preparation?
damn bad

my heart beat?
atrial fibrillation

my memory?
hyperosmolar nonketotic coma

my glucose level?

ace inhibitor for my cardiac
metformin for my hyperglycaemia

foot note: i dont have either that coma nor hyperglycaemia nor atrial fibrillation.. but i do have palpitation.. WISH ME LUCK!!!!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011


Dear heart,

please forgive yourself for trying too hard..
for put too much effort..
i know you are tired, frustrated with life..
life aint that bad..
life is not only black and white..
life is full with colours, paint by GOD..

hold on..
hold tightly..
never let you grasp loose..
everything will be fine..

Dear mind,

please forgive yourself for trying too hard..
for put too much effort..
i know you confused, stressed, with life..
life aint that hard..
life is not only about them and them..
life full with other creatures GOD made for you..

shut your eyes..
hold your tongue..
closed you ears..
know your place..
everything will be fine..

Dear soul,

please forgive yourself for trying too hard,
for put too much effort,
i know you feel hopeless, away from tracks of life..
life aint that lonely,
life is not only luxury and power..
life full with priceless gift GOD offered for you..

have faith..
never give up..
never despair..
everything will be fine..

for every bad things happened
have its own reason..
for every bad things happened
will wash away by time..
for every bad things happened
will come the good one..
at the end of darkness,
there will always a light..
thats a promise from HIM to you..

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

WANITA itu ISTIMEWA from Malaysian Community.. :)

Wahai Tuhan, mengapa wanita sering menangis?


Kerana wanita itu unik.
Aku ciptakannya sebagai makhluk istimewa,
Ku kuatkan bahunya untuk menjaga anak-anaknya,
Ku lembutkan hatinya untuk memberi rasa aman,
Ku kuatkan rahimnya untuk menyimpan benih manusia,
Ku teguhkan peribadinya untuk terus berjuang pada saat yang lain menyerah,
Ku berikannya naluri untuk mencintai anak-anak dalam apa jua keadaan sekalipun,
Ku kuatkan batinnya untuk tetap menyayangi walau dikhianati oleh teman,
Walau disakiti oleh “orang” yang dia sayangi..
Wanita makhluk kuat,
Tetapi jika satu saat dia menangis itu kerana Ku berikannya air mata untuk membasuh luka batin dan memberi kekuatan baru..

love your mother, your sisters, your aunts, your nieces, your friends..
never take for granted..

foot note: wanna update about D-Day!! stay tune! Semper Fi!!

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Mumbling about part time work..

HEY peeps!! currently start back my so-long Research Project.. pray nothing happened in the middle that will distract my attention.. ngeh3..

will off two 2-hours class this evening.. yup, i know, its sooo wasting the petrol but what to do.. our class rep will try her best to forward the class on Wednesday so that we got 2 classes in a day like monday.. *and why so may "day" at the end?" crossing finger..

i also in the middle of mission.. my mission is to work part-time, earn some money.. however, there are always the trick.. i can do part time job for two days (Tuesday and Friday) OR jobs that have flexible time, in which when needed.. and a big NO on weekends.. so many demand eh?

i want to be a math tutor for primary school, already contact the manager at that tuition center, however the classes only in evening time, which really my concern as i will do attachment at Sg Buloh Hosp, i dont think i can make it.

i want to work as part-time at pharmacy store, however, the manager want at least weekends time if i cant make it on weekdays.. i try make it on night time..

i asked my mum if i can work "when needed" at one of the macaroon's owner bakery.. she got few big orders and dont have enough staffs so i simply asked if she need extra staffs.. walawei!! she accept me and my mum also give green light.. so do my brother.. *blessing from ALLAH* so i will start tonight.. for a try.. :)

please dont misunderstood me readers.. i do wanna work but with my other commitment, i cant put 100% in one stuff.. im still a student, currently sem 7.. half of my classmates already work since sem 5.. i cant be like them.. i had to focus study, still my priority.. even im a full time student, my pointer is just so-so, imagine if i work part time?!!!

im the only daughter and small family.. every weekends, im away from subang jaya.. my brother and i will off to kuantan or kelantan or god-knows-where..when the king and queen requested you to come home, they expected you to be there by hook by crook by cook.. no excuses and no mercy.. okay, last statement is hyperbola.. :0 hahahaha..

so, anyone near Subang Jaya/Shah Alam/Bukit Jelutong/TTDI, who dont have enough staff to complete big orders for your pastry, anyone who need math tutor *i loved math and easy for me to explain* or anyone knows where i can find part-time job that suit with my condition, do inform me via email, comment in this entry, message to my FB.. really appreciate.. :)

till then..
thank you for reading my mumbling..

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Raya Holiday Finale!! final woha!!

Hey readers!! good day people!! woha! i can upload the pictures! nothing wrong with the photo's tab.. my bad.. ngeh3.. *giler malu* anyway continuation from my Raya Holiday Part 2.. i skipped the third day, i went to kl on that day with my mummy, anic and his gf.. we were looking for Rizalman Atelier.. and yup, we got it.. sorry for not snapping any pictures, too busy using PapaGo and Gamen as well as one alive GPS

the fourth day: small open house at my Subang Jaya's house..

my mummy asked me to buy a cake.. online sudeh..
suppose being deliver but then the owner got last minute problem, so i had to pick at her house at TTDI.. naseb bek den tau area umah tu..

Salam Aidilfitri 2011..

vanilla cake with orange butter cream and fondant cake.. delicious!!

we had small open house.. we invited few relatives as well as closed friends.. im so busy in the kitchen.. refill the drink, the food.. washed the dishes, etc.. gambar2 ni pon tangkap before the event start.. our meal were nasi dagang with acar and curry chicken and gulai ikan.. very2 simple.. my mummy cooked everything aid by me.. *nak gak* one of my cousin request for nasi dagang, its soo coincidence.. ngeh3..

finally, the Raya Holiday done!! hope you guys enjoyed!

till then..
thank you for reading..

foot note: my mummy always be the front line.. im prefer helping in the kitchen.. :)

second foot note: doing auto-publish, feels good.. muhahaha..

Knock on the head!!

Hye readers.. been busy and tired sometime make you lose your control and feel excited to share something with the readers.. however, it knock my head literally.. its good to share but i realize that my previous entries doesnt reflect myself.. please dont bother to check the last2 entries.. i already delete it.. ngeh3.. anyway, ill continue with the Raya Holiday Finale once i can upload my pictures.. dont know whats the problem.. i click it, but nothing happened.. weird!

till then fellas..

Monday, September 26, 2011

Dari Seorang Kawan..

Ibarat pelangi petang
Mereka ada dikala kamu gembira
Hanya untuk seketika
Hilang dikala kamu dilanda duka

Friday, September 23, 2011

What A Life?!!

Hey readers!! what a life.. always been busy and busy.. i really envy with my parent's life at the moment.. you know what they are doing now? having a fabulous dinner and i guess supper also at Swiss Garden Hotel.. sometime went to Cameron Highland like CM is just nearby to Kuantan.. what the heck.. what a life!! hahaha..

ayway, for this week, i really had a tight schedule.. will share it later on.. i really need to update as fast as possible as i will be drive to Kuantan tonight with my brother.. what a life!! xpernah ada kat umah biler weekend.. either balik Kuantan or Kelantan or god-know-where we will going..

as i did mention before, im really in trauma if im sick.. and yeah!! my wish come true.. had dry cough for almost a week now.. bought lozenges but hopeless.. just feel better but not for so long.. its not cool when you are sick.. especially cough and flu.. why? during lecture or tutorial, when the lecturer start the class, i will start coughing.. oh yeah, very hard and very loud.. even i try to control by hide with my bag.. so embarrassing la wei.. people looking at you like "can you stop coughing?" der.. like i want to get sick!! same goes to flu.. when i had conversation with lecturers, the flu getting worst.. so embarrassing!! its unbearable!!

and we got Veterinary For Therapeutic Products lecturer, at last.. first class was boring.. its really too technical with HACCP system.. what on earth is that?! sir asked us to do assignment regarding the system and also got quiz for that.. since im a good student, i completed it and submit to him during the class yesterday.. still, its really unbearable to complete it.. and the quiz, woha!!! goreng kentang giler.. siyesly, i never thought i can answer it.. but thankz to the assignment, it really help my understanding.. tu yang leh jawab.. ngeh3.. those who dont do the assignment yet, they really in trouble..

will continued for next entry.. really fast speed.. :)

foot note: already transfer the data from Acer Aspire 4720 to Asus notebook.. and start using the notebook.. feel so eager.. Clinical Pharmacy 1 with new spirit.. :)

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Raya Holiday Part 2.. Double Woha!!

Hey readers!! the story continue.. but less pictures this time.. sorry guys.. im busy eating and eating and forgot to snap pictures.. those pictures i rembat from my bro's facebook.. :)

second day: at Juasseh, Nogori Sombilan..

the owner of the blog.. greeeeenn.. *kain beli kat Vietnam gak, Russian Market*

at Ayah Ki and Cik Na's house.. one of their daughter is one of my follower.. :) dila the cute

we usually used one car, the CRV one.. since our family already expand, we need to use 2 cars now, CRV and MyVi.. my parents use Swift if only both of them travel.. *sangat jeles biler mereka travel tanpa saya*

another snap..
sedap oo Cik Na masak..
nasi kerabu and telur masin with all ulam2..
*the owner of the blog really excited when talked about food*

Justify Fullto be continued.. :)

scribble note: quite tired for couples of days.. a bit unmotivated also.. aaishh..

Friday, September 9, 2011



i being her follower for a year already.. if im not mistaken.. but only as a silent reader.. recently i left comments in her post, since it related about her health and so-called-celebrity trying commit suicide.. you know i really concern for anything about health indirectly.. and she did jejak my blog.. and she like my blog..

sangat2 terharu!! my blog is so silly but she like it.. :) thankz sis.. :) always be your loyal reader, silent reader of course.. :)

foot note: saya sangat jakun.. rasa rendah diri sangat biler compare follower this famous blogger with my followers.. and her style of writing is way too goodthan mine..

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.... Blog saya best ke tak? Macam Tak..

HEY readers!! a very good wednesday.. eh jap, i though Wednesday is "wordless Wednesday" kan? ooo, sungguh teruk owner blog ni.. thats bad.. hahahaha.. my mistake.. i really dont have time to update, yet i do feel terrible left my blog like this..

anyway, SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL OF YOU!! yup, im always late few days, few weeks in celebrating something.. but not that late coz we had our fasting for a month, so our Raya should be a month also.. ngeh3.. i will story-mory my holiday Raya later on yar..

when i had time to kill, i will blog-walking, read good entries.. and there are few famous bloggers that i found.. and i did follow one of them.. and i realize there are similar entries post by these famous bloggers.. coincidence? maybe.. its not bad entry, it something open my eyes literally about blogging and how to attract the followers..

here's the pin-point that been discussed:

1) background: should be nice, not too crowded, strongly suggest use white so that readers easy to read the text.

2) font: suitable design of font with strongly suggest black colour, easy for readers to read.

3) title: must have attractive title, make the readers curious to read more.

4)the blog itself must regularly update

5)strongly suggest to put more pictures and less words/text, use paragraph if possible

6) strongly encourage to have shoutbox, easy for readers to backlink their blog

7) leaved comments at their post regularly

and few others that i dont remember the details.. *its been a while, cant remember all*

so, compare to my blog..

1) background: i love dark, something mysterious, with mixture of purple or soft colour like peach, light orange/yellow, etc.. but not entirely dark/black..

2) font: i jenis rambang mata, so i had difficult time to decide which type of font that i should use.. the colour itself, i not really keen to use white, its quite boring.. most poeple choose white in contrast with black background.. instead i pick light red/pinkish..

3) title: kelemahan i, i memang xpandai nak wat title gempak style.. simply write what im thinking of.. like this title lor, "SELAMAT HARI RAYA... Blog best ke tak? Macam Tak.."

4) this part is another weakness.. i cant regularly update.. there will time i can post every day, but there will time i cant even open my blog.. i did plan to do auto-publish, but never happened.. perhaps, someday.. ngeh3..

5) put more pics? ooo malasnya!! hahaha.. but i do put pics.. :) since im not regularly updating it, i will post pretty long entry to cover all the days i missed and to share all the activities i did.. so yup, more texts/words.. and i do paragraph.. *one point for me* :)

6) i do have shoutbox.. and i did jejak blogs that have link..

7) i more to silent readers.. even im already being their followers, its like once in a blue moon i leaved the comments.. memang dah macam tu style i..

thats the tips from the famous bloggers.. to implement? pretty hard for me.. gee.. but its still good tips.. :) no wonder la xramai followers i.. hehehe.. tapi xpe, ada gak yang sudi follow.. :)

sekarang ni pon ada trend, "i follow u, u follow back" pernah la i terikot style tu.. dah orang follow kita, i pon follow balik tapi kan ada satu time tu i pi comment this blog, if im not mistaken i did said "congratz"and the owner replied "are u my followers?"

i was like, what the heck! that person follow me first and asked to do the same thing and i did and that failure never realize im one of the followers?!! marah x, more to frustrated.. macam xappreciate je.. thats all.. at least, before that failure replied like that, he/she should check the followers list.. not that hard..

start hari tu, memang xde harapan la nak i follow2.. biler i blog walking, i suka blog tu, i akan follow dia.. and i will not expect that owner will follow me back.. bak kata orang2 veteran, kita buat sesuatu jangan harapkan sesuatu dari orang tersebut, biar ikhlas.. tau la blog i pon bukan best mana..

sesiapa yang dah tinggalkan link2 blog diaorang kat shoutbox tu memang i akan pi jejalan.. lambat atau cepat je., and i will let them know that i did blog-walking there.. walaupon xjadi followers, i ada gak singgah2 and leave comment kat shoutbox mereka..

so yeah, no wonder xbanyak followers.. ngeh3.. nevertheless, thankz to my silent readers, my followers for willing to jejak and read my post..

thats all for now..
thank you for reading..

p/s: sesiapa yang baca ni jangan la xlink kan balik blog kamu2 ye.. jangan majok.. :) i akan singgah jugak ke blog2 kamu2 semua.. :) mana tau i suka, xpon kengkawan i len suka, i promote ler sekali.. :)

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Nak Melawa Jugakla.. :)

Hey there.. assalammualaikum.. apo kabor? :) lagi beberapa hari aje kita nak raya kan.. i suka!! :) baju raya, kuih raya semua siap dah ke cik adik cik kak cik sekalian? bguih ler kalau dah siap.. ngeh3.. *entry bahasa melayu, kepala jam sikit*

sebenarnya kan, nak citer sikit.. atien start pakai tudung darjah 5.. *teruknya* itupon sebab dah promised with my brother, kalau darjah 5 naik balik kelas pertama and jadi pengawas, kena pakai tudung.. *brothers bukan parents tau* so from 11 years old till now, im wearing tudung..

tapi kan ada gak la terdetik perasaan nakal nak free hair macam bebudak len.. tengok diaorang yang rebonding, highlight colour, pakai headband yang comel2, klip2 yang vogue, teringin plak.. tapi biler dah pakai tudung, kengkadang xbiasa plak xpakai.. rasa macam len..

biler kuar rumah pakai tudung.. dalam rumah, mula la pkai headband, klip.. pernah la merasa wat highlight, pas mintak izin mummy.. ngeh3.. pernah la merasa rebonding.. walaupon xdapat nak tunjuk kat orang len, tapi at least kita wat, kita nampak, we feel good.. seronok gak.. tapi pastu xmau la wat..

you know sometime, we just want to try, to feel how its like..pastu xde dah la.. tengok yang lain pakai contact lens, teringin gak.. so merasa la gak.. mula2 dengan colourless pastu amik colour plak.. start pkai biler masok lepas matrik.. zaman sekolah dengan matrik budak berhingus lagi, xtau apa2.. ececeh.. first pakai colour grey, pastu warna biru gelap..

kalau bab tudung, atien xbese pakai yang design2 lelawa macam Ariani ke, Fareeda ke.. lebih suka pakai tudung bawal je.. bukan xde, beli la gak sehelai dua, tapi still dalam plastik.. hahaha.. mummy paksa beli kata "tu kan trend sekarang, pakai la sekali sekala" tapi xbermakna yang pakai tudung vogeu2 tu xlawa, lawa gak.. tapi atien je yang xbiasa pakai.. :)

bertepatan dengan tajuk di atas *pergh skema!* nak melawa juga di hari raya mulia nanti.. atin baru je beli colourless lens tadi.. dah lama xpakai yang colourless.. yang ada sekarang, colour lens warna biru.. tapi xselalu pakai time pi klas, kang kata mencapap sangat kan.. lagipon, biler pakai lens tu, mata rasa macam kering sangat.. sangat xselesa.. xtau la sebab brand dia ke, atau memang jenis dia ke.. yang ni first time beli yang dari korea, yang murah2 tu rm39 something2.. kira sangat serik la nak beli dah.. sanggup beli yang mahal dari mata pedih.. huhu..

so, atien beli la yang colourless supply for 1 year.. giler tamak.. sebenarnya lens tu last for 2 months.. but since both my eyes have different power, so kena pakai len power for different eyes.. satu kotak ada 6 lens, beli 2 kotak sebab 2 different power.. ingat nak beli yang colour sekali untuk pakai raya, tapi dengan 2 kotak different power, budget sudah lari.. huhu..

lagipon baru wat rambut semalam.. pon harga sedap gak.. kalau nak ikotkan kemahuan, memang kempis la wallet.. maka dengan rasionalnya, xjadi beli colour lens.. muhahaha.. cakap pasal rambut, atin potong rambut baru!! hahaha.. i suka nyah! banyak orang cakap sayang sebab rambut atin panjang.. but then siyesly, im a bit buzy for next 2 months, nak bega2 rambut ni sangat la xrajin.. lagipon rambut still akan panjang kan? kan? ngeh3..

potong rambut paras leher, pastu potong rambut depan macam amoi2 selalu wat.. ingat nak layer tapi pak cik stylist tu kata way something new, so ok la.. lagipon atin memang dah biasa salon and pak cik tu, so go on je la.. ngeh3..
*ooh panjangnya entry ni, biler nak habis*

sikit je lagi ye kengkawan.. lepas beli lens, pergi la menyinggah ke kedai aksesori, nak beli headband and klip.. since atin pakai tudung, emmang xdapek ler nak try cekak tu ok ke x.. balik2 umah, try.. alor!! cekak macam besar sikit..bergerak2 pastu jatuh.. leh pakai klips je.. huhu.. it so unbearable!!!!

SO SESAPA NAK CEKAK, SILA PM ATIEN!! CEKAK TU SANGAT BARU!! *xsampai 2 jam pon-huhuuhu* HARGA DIA RM5, ATIEN JUAL HALF-PRICE JE!! warna dia stripe hitam putih, ada riben, tapi xbesar la.. medium size.. veru cute.. :)

thats all for now.. thankz for reading..

till then..

Thursday, August 18, 2011


Jam 6.30 petang.

Mak berdiri di depan pintu. Wajah Mak kelihatan resah. Mak tunggu adik bungsu balik dari sekolah agama.

Ayah baru balik dari sawah.

Ayah tanya Mak, “Along mana?’

Mak jawab, “Ada di dapur tolong siapkan makan.”

Ayah tanya Mak lagi,” Angah mana?”

Mak jawab, “Angah mandi, baru balik main bola.”

Ayah tanya Mak, “Ateh mana?”

Mak jawab, “Ateh, Kak Cik tengok tv dengan Alang di dalam?”

Ayah tanya lagi, “Adik dah balik?”

Mak jawab, “Belum. Patutnya dah balik. Basikal adik rosak kot. Kejap lagi kalau tak balik juga jom kita pergi cari Adik.”

Mak jawab soalan ayah penuh yakin. Tiap-tiap hari ayah tanya soalan yang sama. Mak jawab penuh perhatian. Mak ambil berat di mana anak-anak Mak dan bagaimana keadaan anak-anak Mak setiap masa dan setiap ketika.

Dua puluh tahun kemudian

Jam 6.30 petang

Ayah balik ke rumah. Baju ayah basah. Hujan turun sejak tengahari.

Ayah tanya Along, “Mana Mak?”

Along sedang membelek-belek baju barunya. Along jawab, “Tak tahu.”

Ayah tanya Angah, “Mana Mak?”

Angah menonton tv. Angah jawab, “Mana Angah tahu.”

Ayah tanya Ateh, “Mana Mak?”

Ayah menunggu lama jawapan dari Ateh yang asyik membaca majalah.

Ayah tanya Ateh lagi, "Mana Mak?"

Ateh menjawab, “Entah.”

Ateh terus membaca majalah tanpa menoleh kepada Ayah.

Ayah tanya Alang, “Mana Mak?”

Alang tidak jawab. Alang hanya mengoncang bahu tanda tidak tahu.

Ayah tidak mahu tanya Kak Cik dan Adik yang sedang melayan facebook. Ayah tahu yang Ayah tidak akan dapat jawapan yang ayah mahu.

Tidak ada siapa tahu di mana Mak. Tidak ada siapa merasa ingin tahu di mana Mak. Mata dan hati anak-anak Mak tidak pada Mak. Hanya mata dan hati Ayah yang mencari-cari di mana Mak.

Tidak ada anak-anak Mak yang tahu setiap kali ayah bertanya, "Mana Mak?"

Tiba-tiba adik bungsu bersuara, “Mak ni dah senja-senja pun merayap lagi. Tak reti nak balik!!”

Tersentap hati Ayah mendengar kata-kata Adik.

Dulu anak-anak Mak akan berlari mendakap Mak apabila balik dari sekolah. Mereka akan tanya "Mana Mak?" apabila Mak tidak menunggu mereka di depan pintu.

Mereka akan tanya, "Mana Mak." Apabila dapat nomor 1 atau kaki melecet main bola di padang sekolah. Mak resah apabila anak-anak Mak lambat balik. Mak mahu tahu di mana semua anak-anaknya berada setiap waktu dan setiap ketika.

Sekarang anak-anak sudah besar. Sudah lama anak-anak Mak tidak bertanya 'Mana Mak?"

Semakin anak-anak Mak besar, soalan "Mana Mak?" semakin hilang dari bibir anak-anak Mak .

Ayah berdiri di depan pintu menunggu Mak. Ayah resah menunggu Mak kerana sudah senja sebegini Mak masih belum balik. Ayah risau kerana sejak akhir-akhir ini Mak selalu mengadu sakit lutut.

Dari jauh kelihatan sosok Mak berjalan memakai payung yang sudah uzur. Besi-besi payung tercacak keluar dari kainnya. Hujan masih belum berhenti. Mak menjinjit dua bungkusan plastik. Sudah kebiasaan bagi Mak, Mak akan bawa sesuatu untuk anak-anak Mak apabila pulang dari berjalan.

Sampai di halaman rumah Mak berhenti di depan deretan kereta anak-anak Mak. Mak buangkan daun-daun yang mengotori kereta anak-anak Mak. Mak usap bahagian depan kereta Ateh perlahan-lahan. Mak rasakan seperti mengusap kepala Ateh waktu Ateh kecil. Mak senyum. Kedua bibir Mak diketap repat. Senyum tertahan, hanya Ayah yang faham. Sekarang Mak tidak dapat lagi merasa mengusap kepala anak-anak seperti masa anak-anak Mak kecil dulu. Mereka sudah besar. Mak takut anak Mak akan menepis tangan Mak kalau Mak lakukannya.

Lima buah kereta milik anak-anak Mak berdiri megah. Kereta Ateh paling gah. Mak tidak tahu pun apa kehebatan kereta Ateh itu. Mak cuma suka warnanya. Kereta warna merah bata, warna kesukaan Mak. Mak belum merasa naik kereta anak Mak yang ini.

Baju mak basah kena hujan. Ayah tutupkan payung mak. Mak bagi salam. Salam Mak tidak berjawab. Terketar-ketar lutut Mak melangkah anak tangga. Ayah pimpin Mak masuk ke rumah. Lutut Mak sakit lagi.

Mak letakkan bungkusan di atas meja. Sebungkus rebung dan sebungkus kueh koci pemberian Mak Uda untuk anak-anak Mak. Mak Uda tahu anak-anak Mak suka makan kueh koci dan Mak malu untuk meminta untuk bawa balik. Namun raut wajah Mak sudah cukup membuat Mak Uda faham.

Semasa menerima bungkusan kueh koci dari Mak Uda tadi, Mak sempat berkata kepada Mak Uda, "Wah berebutlah budak-budak tu nanti nampak kueh koci kamu ni."

Sekurang-kurangnya itulah bayangan Mak. Mak bayangkan anak-anak Mak sedang gembira menikmati kueh koci sebagimana masa anak-anak Mak kecil dulu. Mereka berebut dan Mak jadi hakim pembuat keputusan muktamat. Sering kali Mak akan beri bahagian Mak supaya anak-anak Mak puas makan. Bayangan itu sering singgah di kepala Mak.

Ayah suruh Mak tukar baju yang basah itu. Mak akur.

Selepas Mak tukar baju, Ayah iring Mak ke dapur. Mak ajak anak-anak Mak makan kueh koci. Tidak seorang pun yang menoleh kepada Mak. Mata dan hati anak-anak Mak sudah bukan pada Mak lagi.

Mak hanya tunduk, akur dengan keadaan.

Ayah tahu Mak sudah tidak boleh mengharapkan anak-anak melompat-lompat gembira dan berlari mendakapnya seperti dulu.

Ayah temankan Mak makan. Mak menyuap nasi perlahan-lahan, masih mengharapkan anak-anak Mak akan makan bersama. Setiap hari Mak berharap begitu. Hanya Ayah yang duduk bersama Mak di meja makan setiap malam.

Ayah tahu Mak penat sebab berjalan jauh. Siang tadi Mak pergi ke rumah Mak Uda di kampung seberang untuk mencari rebung. Mak hendak masak rebung masak lemak cili api dengan ikan masin kesukaan anak-anak Mak.

Ayah tanya Mak kenapa Mak tidak telepon suruh anak-anak jemput. Mak jawab, "Saya dah suruh Uda telepon budak-budak ni tadi. Tapi Uda kata semua tak berangkat."

Mak minta Mak Uda telepon anak-anak yang Mak tidak boleh berjalan balik sebab hujan. Lutut Mak akan sakit kalau sejuk. Ada sedikit harapan di hati Mak agar salah seorang anak Mak akan menjemput Mak dengan kereta. Mak teringin kalau Ateh yang datang menjemput Mak dengan kereta barunya. Tidak ada siapa yang datang jemput Mak.

Mak tahu anak-anak mak tidak sedar telepon berbunyi. Mak ingat kata-kata ayah, “Kita tak usah susahkan anak-anak. Selagi kita mampu kita buat saja sendiri apa-apa pun. Mereka ada kehidupan masing-masing. Tak payah sedih-sedih. Maafkan sajalah anak-anak kita. Tak apalah kalau tak merasa menaiki kereta mereka sekarang. Nanti kalau kita mati kita masih ada peluang merasa anak-anak mengangkat kita kat bahu mereka.”

Mak faham buah hati Mak semua sudah besar. Along dan Angah sudah beristeri. Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik masing-masing sudah punya buah hati sendiri yang sudah mengambil tempat Mak di hati anak-anak Mak.

Pada suapan terakhir, setitik air mata Mak jatuh ke pinggan.

Kueh koci masih belum diusik oleh anak-anak Mak.

Beberapa tahun kemudian

Mak Uda tanya Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik, “Mana mak?”.

Hanya Adik yang jawab, “Mak dah tak ada.”

Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik tidak sempat melihat Mak waktu Mak sakit.

Kini Mak sudah berada di sisi Tuhannya bukan di sisi anak-anak Mak lagi.

Dalam isakan tangis, Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik menerpa kubur Mak. Hanya batu nisan yang berdiri terpacak. Batu nisan Mak tidak boleh bersuara. Batu nisan tidak ada tangan macam tangan Mak yang selalu memeluk erat anak-anaknya apabila anak-anak datang menerpa Mak semasa anak-anak Mak kecil dulu.

Mak pergi semasa Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik berada jauh di bandar. Kata Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik mereka tidak dengar handphone berbunyi semasa ayah telepon untuk beritahu mak sakit tenat.

Mak faham, mata dan telinga anak-anak Mak adalah untuk orang lain bukan untuk Mak.

Hati anak-anak Mak bukan milik Mak lagi. Hanya hati Mak yang tidak pernah diberikan kepada sesiapa, hanya untuk anak-anak Mak..

Mak tidak sempat merasa diangkat di atas bahu anak-anak Mak. Hanya bahu ayah yang sempat mengangkat jenazah Mak dalam hujan renyai.

Ayah sedih sebab tiada lagi suara Mak yang akan menjawab soalan Ayah,

"Mana Along?" , "Mana Angah?", "Mana Ateh?", "Mana Alang?", "Mana Kak Cik?" atau "Mana Adik?". Hanya Mak saja yang rajin menjawab soalan ayah itu dan jawapan Mak memang tidak pernah silap. Mak sentiasa yakin dengan jawapannya sebab mak ambil tahu di mana anak-anaknya berada pada setiap waktu dan setiap ketika. Anak-anak Mak sentiasa di hati Mak tetapi hati anak-anak Mak ada orang lain yang mengisinya.

Ayah sedih. Di tepi kubur Mak, Ayah bermonolog sendiri, "Mulai hari ini tidak perlu bertanya lagi kepada Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik , "Mana mak?" "

Kereta merah Ateh bergerak perlahan membawa Ayah pulang. Along, Angah, Alang dan Adik mengikut dari belakang. Hati ayah hancur teringat hajat Mak untuk naik kereta merah Ateh tidak kesampaian. Ayah terbayang kata-kata Mak malam itu, "Cantiknya kereta Ateh, kan Bang? Besok-besok Ateh bawalah kita jalan-jalan kat Kuala Lumpur tu. Saya akan buat kueh koci buat bekal."

"Ayah, ayah....bangun." Suara Ateh memanggil ayah. Ayah pengsan sewaktu turun dari kereta Ateh..

Terketar-ketar ayah bersuara, "Mana Mak?"

Ayah tidak mampu berhenti menanya soalan itu. Sudah 10 tahun Mak pergi namun soalan "Mana Mak?" masih sering keluar dari mulut Ayah sehingga ke akhir usia.

Sebuah cerita pendek buat tatapan anak-anak yang kadang-kadang lupa persaan ibu. Kata orang hidup seorang ibu waktu muda dilambung resah, apabila tua dilambung rasa. Kata Rasulullah saw. ibu 3 kali lebih utama dari ayah. Bayangkanlah berapa kali ibu lebih utama dari isteri, pekerjaan dan anak-anak sebenarnya. Solat sunat pun Allah suruh berhenti apabila ibu memanggil. Berapa kerapkah kita membiarkan deringan telepon panggilan dari ibu tanpa berjawab?


alhamdulilah selama 22 tahun hidup, bila daddy tanya, along anic tanya, masih lagi mampu menjawab mana mummy saya.. xpernah lagi xangkat call mummy daddy.. even dalam klas, angkat gak cakap ada klas.. *tapi along anic sayang memang ada la* hahaha.. tapi hidup ni masih jauh, moga2 xkan berlaku seperti di atas..

sama2 kita wat peringatan dan pedoman.. :)

till then..

thank you for reading.. :)

Friday, August 12, 2011


HALUUU readers!! and a very good day!! im currently doing multitasking.. ececeh.. from the early morning, i started searching my literature for my research project, a little bit touch and go of my 1000 pcs puzzles, organize my messy study desk as well as settle all the chores.. *yela sangat semua chores* hahaha.. and not to forget, a little bit exploring my hp.. actually not the new one, it belongs to my first brother and since he buy the new samsung slim s2, he gave me his still brand-new hp.. so, yeah, thats all for my morning stuff..

CUT THE CRAP!!! like the title mention, i love and enjoyed food.. if you guys love to explore new restaurants, please do CONTACT me.. im willing to go.. hahaha.. *of course with someone that i know la* xkan nak kuar dengan strangers plak.. hohoho..

let the pictures do the briefing a bit yar:

*please forgive me for not organize the pics properly*-so called pemalas!

this is my niece at the age of 3 months.. i decided to buy a custom made cake for her, despite she cannot eat it.. hahaha..

close view..

me at TGI FRIDAY.. really awesome!! with my friend, and yes she loved food too.. :)

close view.. i dont remember the name.. dah lama dah.. and yes, it damn delicious!!

at Monrod restaurant.. i forgot to snap the main meal.. this one is something call chocolate something2.. terbaek!! rasa coklat dia tu.. ngeh3..

the Cupcake Chic at Sunway Pyramid.. im sure you guys know..

these are the cupcakes.. very big, berbaloi dengan harga dia yangbig jugak!! hahaha

custom made chocolate moist cake.. i ordered because tetiba rasa terliur nak makan.. but since my mum already bough the mixer and the big oven, ill do it myself.. jimat!!

slice of sweet Pavlova

close view.. its damn sweet.. but delicious.. inside got slices of mango, peach and starwberry.. its soft.. kira sape xsuka kunyah makanan, boleh la makan benda ni pastu terus telan..

MACAROONS!!! im crazy with this french cookies.. i did order once for my senior's farewell night.. from my experience, its better to keep in the fridge for 1-2 hours before you eat it.. sebabnya, bila letak dalam fridge dulu, dia dah keras cket, bila ngap, xrasa manis sangat (xmanis sangat compare pavlova) and the filling pon sedap je..

woha!! all about food!! nice ha? i order for the second time with the same sister.. she have good customer service.. and the price so-so ok la.. apatah lagi tengah promosi Hari Raya, lagi la i shopping macaroon u!! hahaha..

thats all for now.. thankz for reading..
till then..

p/s= please ignore my rusty broken English.. read it if u like, leave it if you dont.. HAPPY DAY!!


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