Monday, May 23, 2011

A good news starts the week

HEY PEEPS!!! just received good new!! last 2 weeks, im pretty stress.. erk, since i take pharmacy course, i stress all the time.. ngeh3.. anyway, today, monday, received good new.. motivate me to do better and never give up..

perseverance.. thats the key.. mummy always right.. never lose hope, never give up, have faith.. HE know the best.. and yup.. i get what i deserve for.. and im happy for that.. so gear 5, remain the speed..

HE gave less for us to be strong.. so that when HE give more we will appreciate it and not lost from the track and remain humble..

be humble..
be honest with yourself..
be nice to people
(despite some people simply judge you)
be strong..
never give up..
never lose hope..
have the effort..
have faith..
HE know the best for you..
its just a matter of time..
patience always the winner..


Thursday, May 19, 2011

Perseverance..

hey peeps.. sorry for not having a good cheer mode.. kind off disappointed/ frustrated.. you name it..

Perseverance.. its a noun.. persevere.. its a verb.. *do forgive me, im not good grammar narrator* meaning? to continue to try, to do something in spite of difficulties..

yup, thats theory part.. practically? i cry for most of my education life.. im not so-called straight-A-score student.. i dont get straight A for my UPSR and i dont blame anyone.. im too busy with my sport activities.. missed my chance to go to boarding school.. thats my first time cry for losing the chance..

i cry when i dont get straight A for my PMR.. losing another chance to go to boarding school since im lived at big city, the quota more to rural area.. *yela sangat* damn 7A.. hahaha.. the funny part was B for BM.. how on earth i got B for BM.. trust me, im not proud of it.. so embarrassed la wei.. *slapping my face*

i cry when i dont get Asasi for Pre-U, only matriculation.. once again, not straight As despite i got As for chemistry, biology.. i got A for BM ok.. muhahaha.. damn physic and addmath i got B3.. i hate these subjects.. by the way, during my time, SPM's result was A1,A2 etc..

i cry when got my first sem result, almost losing hope.. too far from home, from family.. feels alone.. my second sem heal the wounds..

i cry when i got offer from UiTM.. its not what i want.. been there for almost a month and i cried for not feel the passion.. i dropped it, further to other course.. and suit me..

for another 3 years and one year to come, i still cry when i cant get a good result.. result that i hoped or expected..

i cry for not being as smart as them..

i cry for not being as good as them..

mummy said never give up, never losing hospe, be strong, have faith.. HE knows the best..

i still cry when i received the good result..

i still cry when i get the good news..

at this moment, looking back from my primary school till now, i cry for HE blessed me with this journey.. if HE gave the easy path, maybe im not appreciate my life as much as i did now.. if HE gave the easy path, maybe im not like the way i am now.. *despite what people said*

i still cry.. thats my weakness and my strength..

never give up, never losing hope, be strong, have faith.. perseverance.. thats the key..


p/s: read it if you like.. leave if you dont..
p/s2: one of my blogger, cik zoey cute asked for the entry.. i plan to give the nice excited mode entry for her since been a while not update it.. but due to circumstance, i end up with bad news and affect my entry.. choyy!!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Ambition Vs Chance

Hallu readers.. this weekend a bit free since im not go back to Kuantan or back to kampung at Kelantan.. why so many house? other entry i will post yar.. instead my parents turun KL and also my sis-in-law and my debab niece.. ngeh3.. im just waiting them actually at this moment.. ngeh4..

last entry was about Housewife Vs Career Women.. both have their benefits.. and yar, im still dilemma.. heee.. anyway, today, about Ambition Vs Chance.. frankly im already think about this topic for so long, did the draft mentally but no time to express it in words..

did you guys ever thought about this? you have your own ambition, your own target, but somehow you get better offer or maybe offer that can change your life and your family life.. these two statements do have different meaning.. by the end of this entry, i bet you guys will understand the differences.. ececeh, macam tutorial..

for instance myself, i have my ambition.. i want to be a doctor since i was kindergarten.. yup, thats my first choice and pharmacist is my second choice.. every time my lecturers asked why choose pharmacist, how on earth i wanna lie that i do choose as my second choice.. ngeh4.. thats other story..

after matriculation, *thank god, my second sem result do help a lot!* i do have offer to further my degree in medic course in India and Indonesia.. and yar, very eager as i did pass the interview and the test.. but then, my parents pretty hard to give permission.. too many factors include my safety there.. at the same time i do got offer Pharmacy course at my current university.. i end up with pharmacy course with my family's blessing.. imagine if i still wanna further to India or Indo, without my family's blessing, choy2! nehi2!! tema dia: memang atien dapat offer dan insyaallah, atien boleh buat tapi peluang bukan kepada apa yang atien mahukan.. even we get second option but with family's blessing, the chance is much more better.. :)

same goes to my mummy's situation.. mummy want to be a teacher.. teaching BM, Arts.. that's she wants to do.. no objection from family.. but then, she get better offer.. you know during that time, Tanah Melayu's economy was not very good, chance of education level very limited and once got better option, they need to grab it.. so do my mummy.. even the offer never cross in her mind but the offer was too good to be true.. ngeh3..

for my dad, he got what he want to be.. ngeh3.. for my first brother, he got different ambition but got better offer.. of course he's happy, duit bnyak oo.. orang kaya baru.. ngeh3.. for my second brother, he achieve his target.. ngeh3..

the theme's here is that, we should aim high or at least according to your passion and do hard to achieve it, but if the offer or the chance is much better, why need to reject it.. :) HE did plan the best for us..

till then..
enjoy the weekend peeps.. :)

Friday, May 6, 2011

Housewife Vs Career Women..

HAAALLLUU readers.. long time not update anything.. ececeh.. lama xlama pon dari hari selasa je pon.. ngeh3.. i got few entries kept in my inbox, but since its not complete yet, jadi pekasam la dalam inbox tu ye..

all right, my entry today about housewife versus career women.. *pergh, panjang benor tajuknya* what the similarity of this topic? *ececeh, macam lecturer bunyi* well both are women.. *slapping my face* why im thinking about it? apparently, as im grow older *22years old-consider older as we can married by now-ngeh3* im thinking about my environment, the women especially.. i observe from my sister-in-law, my mummy, my aunts and of course my blogger friends who have the title of mummy.. :) adakah ini sempena Hari Ibu jugak? erk, hentam aje..

as im observed, i analyse the pros and corns for all aspects and i do have the dilemma.. where should i start? should start from myself view.. *slapping the face again* im currently a third year student in pharmacy course.. by next year, i will grad and by 2013 will do PRP *adik beradik houseman-other name for pharmacy students* insyaallah by 2014, i will complete the course and doing 3 years-compulsory service at government hospital.. and yaa, my dream to further in Clinical.. inspired by my parents and of course my lecturers who are almost 60% are clinical pharmacists.. *its not my fault to dream big!-please blame the environment* muhahaha.. within that years, of course i will get married, and hopefully married, i will get kids.. i love babies!! ngeh3..

so dilemma is i have ambition, i have my target, *its high apparently* i will work and take care my family at the same time.. its normal, my mummy also working but still can take care us nicely.. but at the same time, i feel want to be someone who can spend the time with kids and husband only.. somehow i feel i want to send my kids to schools, after that cook for lunch and take them home from school and others.. you see the contraindication there?

from my surrounding, like my mum, she is career women, shes working but still can balance the time with family.. i still remember before mummy leaved to work, mummy cook delicious meal for us and by late evening, mummy coming home, still can smile and start cook for dinner and checked our homework.. when my brothers and i got exams, mummy will stay up with us even mummy still got to work the next day.. i never heard mummy said "im tired".. the only thing mummy said when i asked "susah waktu kecik je, mana nak cari baby sitter, dah msok sekolah rendah, xde la payah mana" *i love u mummy* ngeh3.. but of course my mum dont have time to send me to school, i used to go by van or by bus or cycling.. *only experience it when i was in form 5, itu pon sebab on the way and ada driver* ngeh3.. but im still ok, since i know my mum's works consume her time a lot.. *understanding is the key in the family-slapping my face again*

from my aunts and my sister-in-law, they also working and have small babies.. the problem is to find the baby sitter.. korang bukan xtau zaman sekarang ni banyak isu baby tersedak susu dekat nursery.. kan payah tu.. the cute but sad moment was that once my sis-in-law said amani *my niece* merajuk xnak tengok muka dia first day dia pi keje" comel kan? budak2 zaman sekrang dah pndai merajuk.. tapi xlama la pasal tu, dia men2 je.. my sis-in-law cannot resign because she got contract.. my bro pon xkisah, dia bdak offshore ma, gaji beribu kalah pharmacist.. ngeh3..

from my blogger's view, she had small daughter around 1 years.. and she decide to stop working to focus on her daughter and open online shop.. see? at least she got something to do.. she can help her hubby in the business also.. diaorg ni family otak business.. style beb.. :) yang ni jela so far yang ada baby.. yang len, xpasti.. this is just example..

okay, maybe you guys thinks that its too early to decide anything.. im just thinking, saje jela.. but nevertheless, housewife or career women, these women still extraordinary.. those who work still manage their time for family and for housewife, they still need to do a lotof things despite not working.. korang ingat senang ke jadi housewife, kena kmas rumah, masak, amik anak dari sekolah at the same time maintain lawa depan hubby.. payah oo..

anyway, everyday is Mummy and Daddy's day.. I love u mummy!! i love u daddy!! for mummies out there either working or not, im proud of u!!

till then..

foot note: amik ko, panjang punya entry.. sila jangan terbeliak mata.. ngeh3.. :)