Selimut Hati

i remember this song.. when i was in matrix..

i remember the beats.. till now..

i remember the lyrics.. by heart..

im sorry..

if im not a good servant for Him

if im not good daughter for family

if im not good sister for brothers

if im not good lover for him

if im not good friend for friends

no,

im not pretty like them

im not cute like them

im not wearing make up like them

im not fashionista like them

im not genius/smart like them

yes,

im kinda of boring person

i smiled rather than talk

i choose food rather than shirts

i can wear the same shirts/blouse/jeans/slacks for years

i can wear all my accessories till cant see the original shape/colour 

 

there is time when you tell what your heart felt..

ad there is time when you obersve and wait..

and that time, the only thing you could do is hold your faith and dua everything is ok

evern when you are too far

even you are doubt in yourself..

scribble note: please ignore the emotional post.. really disturbing at the moment..