Middle of May

Assalammualaikum..

1) when i was in Medical Ward, in 3rd week, i start fall sick with unresolved fever for 2 weeks with temperature maintain of 38.6, and been diagnosed of chicken pox.. * i lost my 14 days of annual leave*

2) now, in 2nd week of ICU, i already had sickness symptoms.. and i have my Male Surgical Ward and Female Surgical Ward to go through.. aiyooo.. so ironicccccc..

3) starting my CDR week.. *i love it* reconstitution and all the thingy..

4) already submit my cuti raya and bandung trip.. ye, its sooooo advanced.. 

5) had my car been serviced.. yes, its 3months late.. im sorry but i dont have the time.. and thankz friend for teman me.. i cant drive and scout the service center at the same time what..

6) working tomorrow as locum.. and straight 5 days.. and off for a week.. alhamdulilah.. im so tired.. alone and empty..

7) will have my 2nd case presentation.. hope everything went smoothly.. every month got presentation either its clinical or cme or cpe.. government ma, need to active to get the SKT point ma..

8) the MPS-Gold Medalist Award 2013 went smoothly.. met my lecturers and Dean accompanied me to get the award.. thankz Dr Eddy.. 

along, mummy, me and anic.. my love life.. daddy in our heart, always.. :)

Welcome Back --> ICU and MSW

Assalammualaikum..

after 1 month and a half, plus minus, im back to clinical.. yes, ward.. i love clinical.. interaction with doctors, nurses, patients, clinician pharmacists.. discussions with professionals workers, they inspired me to be a better person and a better pharmacist.. it literally quite long for me, yes even it just 1 month and a half, leaving the knowledge inside my internal disc, and need to godek2 again.. aihhh..

i remembered one HO went to nurse station, where i was there screening the drug chart asking me:

HO:  you are pharmacist right?

me:   you are doctor right?

HO: *grinned* when you free, can we have small briefing about antibiotics?

me:   sure, once i done with the charts, why not.. got viva?

HO:  yup, just to brush up my memory..

me:   awesome, brush up mine as well..

and we become good friends.. when i was in Inpatient Pharmacy, i went to Children Medical Ward for my asthma counseling and a cute female HO asked me to wait for her "saya nak tengok cara counselling jugak" and i introduce both of us to the mother.. see? i love the interactions..

 like a specialist Dr N said when we do ward round, " we are no different, we work together.. i cant remember all the drugs and their details, i asked you.. you let me know when i missed something, that simple lor" 

salam sayang dari perantauan..

38days of losing.. 2 days for coming home.. i know how much you love traveling, by car, by plane.. i know..

Love from Granddaughter to Her Grandfather

Assalammualaikum..

received a call from mummy..

mummy: bring amani to kubur.. you know what she said once we reach there? "sayang atuk, sayang atuk"

girl: *silence*

mummy: take care there ok..

girl: hmm..

happy voting people..

salam sayang dari perantauan..

A Long Month.. @_@

Assalammualaikum..

a very long month.. time flies too slow.. walaupon dengan menyibokkan diri..

the past: 

1) had my first oncall.. 7 days.. the first 3 days were excited, the adrenaline rush like crazy, the next 2 days, feel sleepy but still bearable, the last 2 days, i was exhausted mentally and physically.. no wonder my seniors looks like zombie by the end of their oncall.. checking the record book, my worst called was 1.05am, im barely opened my eyes and drove to hospital.. by the way, im "cold", compared the previous pharmacist oncall, which is my damn luck.. so goodbye "The Keys", will see you on July/August..

2) had my first morning shift.. the same week my oncall start.. how? read the above, you know why.. the good thing was i can punch out by 4.30pm but nothing much differences since i been called back to hospital by 5.45pm..

3) had my last locum tagging in OPD.. alhamdulilah.. 2+1.. done.. this month, i can claim the hours.. and i got off day.. how nice..

4) had my first lunch call.. plus minus, ye, work like slaves, but i still love my work, what i do everyday..

5) anic upgrade to fiancee.. alhamdulilah, simple but went smoothly.. when they sedekah al-fatihah for daddy, my tears running like waterfall.. when my mummy sarungkan cincin, i wish my daddy was there.. he will be happy, he will be the one who are panic..memories...

future:

1) im coming home next week.. yes, again.. for my Malaysian Pharmaceutical Society Dinner's Award.. alhamdulilah2.. received the email and invitation a month ago.. my daddy know.. sempat beritahu arwah, sebelum arwah pergi.. when i received it, im thinking of mummy and daddy, be with me in that dinner.. kita merancang, Allah tentukan.. i kept asked mummy, "did daddy proud of me?" and mummy kept gave the same answered "he proud of you since the day you born"

33 days.. i lost count on how much i lost my weight.. cincin pon boleh terlucut dengan sendirinya.. naseb perasan rasa kosong di jari..

Teruskan Perjuangan..

 

 

 

Pertemuan kita di suatu hari
Menitikkan ukhuwah yang sejati
Bersyukurku kehadap Illahi
Di atas jalinan yang suci

Namun kini perpisahan yang terjadi
Dugaan yang menimpa diri
Bersabarlah diatas suratan
Kutetap pergi jua

Kan kuutuskan salam ingatanku
Dalam doa kudusku sepanjang waktu
Ya Alloh bantulah hamba-Mu

Mencari hidayah dari pada-Mu
Dalam mendidikan kesabaranku
Ya Alloh tabahkan hati hamba-Mu
Diatas perpisahan ini

O.. uwo.. ho..

Teman betapa pilunya hatiku
Menghadapi perpisahan ini
Pahit manis perjuangan
Telah kita rasa bersama
Semoga Allah meredhoi
Persahabatan dan perpisahan ini
Teruskan perjuangan

Kan kuutuskan salam ingatanku
Dalam doa kudusku sepanjang waktu
Ya Alloh bantulah hamba-Mu

Senyuman yang tersirat di bibirmu
Menjadi ingatan setiap waktu
Tanda kemesraan bersimpul padu
Kenangku di dalam doamu
Semoga... Tuhan berkatimu 

 

 

 

"Nobody really knows how much anyone else is hurting..

We could be standing next to someone who's completely broken and we never know it"

Doa Perpisahan dan Kehidupan

Assalammualaikum..

17 days.. its too dark and silence..

Kesenangan mendatang tak akan selamanya,
begitula selepas susah ada kesenangan,
seperti selepas malam datangnya siang,
oleh itu waktu senang jangan lupa daratan..

Gunakan kesempatan untuk kebaikan,
sebelum segalanya terlepas dari gegaman,
kelak menyesal nanti tak berkesudahan,
apa gunanya sesalan hanya menekan jiwa..

Jangan difikir derita akan berpanjangan,
kelak akan membawa putus asa pada tuhan,
ingatlah biasanya kabus tak berpanjangan
setelah kabus berlalu pasti cerah kembali..

Ujian adalah tarbiah dari Allah,
apakah kita akan sama ataupun sebaliknya,
kesenangan yg datang selepas kesusahan,
semuanya adalah nikmat dari Tuhan..

memory note: when i was in matrix, second nasyid adalah peneman hari saya selain zikir, selawat, doa, sokongan dan kasih sayang dari keluarga.. that was 2007.. 2012 and 2013 are challenging years.. perpisahan is part of life.. berlapang dada..

Dari DIA kita datang, kepada DIA kita kembali

Assalammualaikum..

20/08/1955 - 27/03/2013

alhamdulilah.. pergi dengan tenang.. redha dengan takdir.. dipinjam kan selama 23 tahun 5 bulan.. semua berkumpul.. macam dah berjanji.. tiada ralat, tiada tangisan.. hanya kerinduan, diselangi doa untuknya..



foot note: rest in peace for you always in my heart, my mind and my soul.. i will take care mummy for im not that strong and pretend to be one..