A Long Month.. @_@

Assalammualaikum..

a very long month.. time flies too slow.. walaupon dengan menyibokkan diri..

the past: 

1) had my first oncall.. 7 days.. the first 3 days were excited, the adrenaline rush like crazy, the next 2 days, feel sleepy but still bearable, the last 2 days, i was exhausted mentally and physically.. no wonder my seniors looks like zombie by the end of their oncall.. checking the record book, my worst called was 1.05am, im barely opened my eyes and drove to hospital.. by the way, im "cold", compared the previous pharmacist oncall, which is my damn luck.. so goodbye "The Keys", will see you on July/August..

2) had my first morning shift.. the same week my oncall start.. how? read the above, you know why.. the good thing was i can punch out by 4.30pm but nothing much differences since i been called back to hospital by 5.45pm..

3) had my last locum tagging in OPD.. alhamdulilah.. 2+1.. done.. this month, i can claim the hours.. and i got off day.. how nice..

4) had my first lunch call.. plus minus, ye, work like slaves, but i still love my work, what i do everyday..

5) anic upgrade to fiancee.. alhamdulilah, simple but went smoothly.. when they sedekah al-fatihah for daddy, my tears running like waterfall.. when my mummy sarungkan cincin, i wish my daddy was there.. he will be happy, he will be the one who are panic..memories...

future:

1) im coming home next week.. yes, again.. for my Malaysian Pharmaceutical Society Dinner's Award.. alhamdulilah2.. received the email and invitation a month ago.. my daddy know.. sempat beritahu arwah, sebelum arwah pergi.. when i received it, im thinking of mummy and daddy, be with me in that dinner.. kita merancang, Allah tentukan.. i kept asked mummy, "did daddy proud of me?" and mummy kept gave the same answered "he proud of you since the day you born"

33 days.. i lost count on how much i lost my weight.. cincin pon boleh terlucut dengan sendirinya.. naseb perasan rasa kosong di jari..

Teruskan Perjuangan..

 

 

 

Pertemuan kita di suatu hari
Menitikkan ukhuwah yang sejati
Bersyukurku kehadap Illahi
Di atas jalinan yang suci

Namun kini perpisahan yang terjadi
Dugaan yang menimpa diri
Bersabarlah diatas suratan
Kutetap pergi jua

Kan kuutuskan salam ingatanku
Dalam doa kudusku sepanjang waktu
Ya Alloh bantulah hamba-Mu

Mencari hidayah dari pada-Mu
Dalam mendidikan kesabaranku
Ya Alloh tabahkan hati hamba-Mu
Diatas perpisahan ini

O.. uwo.. ho..

Teman betapa pilunya hatiku
Menghadapi perpisahan ini
Pahit manis perjuangan
Telah kita rasa bersama
Semoga Allah meredhoi
Persahabatan dan perpisahan ini
Teruskan perjuangan

Kan kuutuskan salam ingatanku
Dalam doa kudusku sepanjang waktu
Ya Alloh bantulah hamba-Mu

Senyuman yang tersirat di bibirmu
Menjadi ingatan setiap waktu
Tanda kemesraan bersimpul padu
Kenangku di dalam doamu
Semoga... Tuhan berkatimu 

 

 

 

"Nobody really knows how much anyone else is hurting..

We could be standing next to someone who's completely broken and we never know it"

Doa Perpisahan dan Kehidupan

Assalammualaikum..

17 days.. its too dark and silence..

Kesenangan mendatang tak akan selamanya,
begitula selepas susah ada kesenangan,
seperti selepas malam datangnya siang,
oleh itu waktu senang jangan lupa daratan..

Gunakan kesempatan untuk kebaikan,
sebelum segalanya terlepas dari gegaman,
kelak menyesal nanti tak berkesudahan,
apa gunanya sesalan hanya menekan jiwa..

Jangan difikir derita akan berpanjangan,
kelak akan membawa putus asa pada tuhan,
ingatlah biasanya kabus tak berpanjangan
setelah kabus berlalu pasti cerah kembali..

Ujian adalah tarbiah dari Allah,
apakah kita akan sama ataupun sebaliknya,
kesenangan yg datang selepas kesusahan,
semuanya adalah nikmat dari Tuhan..

memory note: when i was in matrix, second nasyid adalah peneman hari saya selain zikir, selawat, doa, sokongan dan kasih sayang dari keluarga.. that was 2007.. 2012 and 2013 are challenging years.. perpisahan is part of life.. berlapang dada..

Dari DIA kita datang, kepada DIA kita kembali

Assalammualaikum..

20/08/1955 - 27/03/2013

alhamdulilah.. pergi dengan tenang.. redha dengan takdir.. dipinjam kan selama 23 tahun 5 bulan.. semua berkumpul.. macam dah berjanji.. tiada ralat, tiada tangisan.. hanya kerinduan, diselangi doa untuknya..



foot note: rest in peace for you always in my heart, my mind and my soul.. i will take care mummy for im not that strong and pretend to be one..

Take 10!! @_@

a colleague of mine said " i dont wanna see you in FMW or CMW" so please take care..

and i was like OK MISS D!!

then i reread, i realize that, 

CMW is stand for Children Medical Ward!!! walaweii.. you sooo cute!!

currently, owner had unresolved fever, on and off for 2 weeks with last temperature was 38.6, 

generalized body weakness and getting worst on last Friday with headache and difficult to breath..

but this week will be very pack with

1) 2 wards inspection and full report

2) forensic exam

3) submission research proposal

4) completed of my Male Medical Ward report

5) preparation for presentation for April includes topics and researchs

6) starts on Journal Appraisal

everything is urgent and priority.. now, tell me, may i have enough sleep and rest with all this things in my mind?

off to go, already 10 minutes, for this blog.. 

till then..

thankz for reading..

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when you thought you can breath for a while, something will turn up and you start have shortness of breath..

for now, the owner is mentally exhausted..

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mummy: 4 years of study and that freaking research thesis did make you down once, but u fight, back to your road and got the award.. you didnt take your sweet time to get up.. how come this time you are so down and not get up yet?

girl: i dont know.. im exhausted, mentally, physically..

the owner is sooo depress.. pray better days, better weeks for the next 7 months..