Hilangnya Sahabat...

4am 5/11/2013... 

Dari DIA kita datang, dari Dia kita kembali...

we lost you forever... forgive me, im not there for you, with others... you know i will catch a flight for you, you know i will... im far from home... im not in Malaysia.. forgive me sahabat...

memories never be replaced... laughter and smile and time we spend together... the last time i messaged you was last sunday...im sorry for not accept the fact... terlalu cepat sahabat...

you asked me to come back to perlis, worked there with you, you promised by my side, support me, since we lost daddy... you cried the day i told you i lost daddy... i know you did... 

we planned in chrismast, you will go to tawau... i changed my oncall date for you... we planned and laughed... you promised to miss me...you promised you never leaved me... and you did...

i love you sahabat, Allah love you more

i miss you, Allah miss you more

my dua always for you.. for daddy and you...

bersemadi dengan tenang wahai insan2 tersayang...

kupanjatkan doa dan kasih untukmu

memory note: 5 days... 7 months 14 days... terlalu banyak kehilangan... tiada ralat untuk daddy dan sabahatku... hanya tangisan mengiringi pemergianmu... 

Juggling The Time!! @_@

Assalammualaikum and Hello Peeps!!

End of October.. Welcoming the November.. i know!!! the last time  i said Hello here was on JULY!!! im juggling the time.. pejam celik pejam celik, worked in Hosp Tawau for 10 months already.. so many things happened, speechless.. there will be time, i hardly breath and severe back pain due to stress and lack of rest.. but it will be worth it.. InsyaAllah.. :)

 1)  our dyslipidemia clinic offically ended early October.. my colleagues and i and our boss scarified soooo many thing.. our time, enegy, money and most of all our weekend to make the clinic succeeded.. for the whole October, me and my colleagues spend our time to make the thesis, analysis the result for our research presentation.. yes, will be present in our unit and also boss will present to Pengarah Hosp.. thankz to the supportive speacialist Dr L.. *i miss Dr N, will see you in UKM bos*

2) currently updating all the logbook.. out of 9 books, im done with 6 books.. another 3 will come with 2 viva to go.. done with 2-hours of Oncology Viva yesterday after so many time postpone due to lack of time from boss and me also.. teeetttt.. hahaha.. another two case report and buletin to settle.. yes, major thing left.. please pray, be nice.. gagagagaa

3) after so many months struggling will all sort of presentation, the day after tomorrow will be my last presentation before submit my logbook.. it feels awesome.. its like part of the burden washed away.. lalalaa.. will be present the second journal appraisal, i think i do like the idea of critical appraisal.. but no, i had no intention to do it again.. :P

4) if you guys noticed, in my FB status for the past few months, im currently active in Tennis and back to my old regime, Swimming!! yess.. finally, i had the time and resource to spend.. will leaved my two regime for 2 weeks as im off starting this 1st November.. but will back to track, saturday swimming and sunday tennis or vice versa.. ohh yes, i have students to kerah tenaga to teman me.. teeheee..

4) November and December will be pretty hectic for me.. after 2 weeks off, will direct posting in Female Medical Ward.. after almost 2 months of leaving clinical, i have definitely need to brush up my rusty management.. aaihhh.. and December will be speechless month.. im literally not in Tawau for every weekend!!! every week i balik semenanjung k!! and yes, December will be my last oncall.. and i pray it will nice and better this time..

basically, this is what happened.. but no, not entire story been told.. sometime it best to stay low.. :)

till then..

foot note: im off today.. after work 6 days, non stop.. what a bless..  :)

memory notes: 7 months and counting... next year a major thing will come out, InsyaAllah, a gift for daddy... even he was not here...

A Little Gift

Assalammualaikum..

alhamdulilah.. a great weekend.. despite working till 10 pm yesterday and today still need to go to hospital for statin-consultation.. 

what a good new was? last Thursday, my Forensic Exam result out.. turn out? i pass with both essay and MCQ questions.. i was like waaaaaa.. bloody nice!! did you guys know, it bloody tough papers.. sometimes pharmacists have to reset for several times to pass.. me? one shot only.. alhamdulilah.. thank you ALLAH.. share with all people i love!!

now, focus on clincal research and case reports.. 4 more months to go for submission.. 5 more months to end my hectic pupillage/houseman ship..

till then..

memo note: off for Oncology department next week.. be strong..

memory note: ulang alik KL-Tawau, macam naik bas ulang alik KL-Kuantan.. :)

Middle of July

Assalammualaikum..

time flies like crazy.. 

hardly catch up my breath..

alhamdulilah, my clinical research started last week, my partner helped me covered last week since im off for a week.. try to refresh myself.. 

the research will held for 3 months..

its collaboration between medical team with pharmacists..

may everything turn well for next 3months.. 

memo note: the higher your rank, more responsibilty your hold.. and when you holding the Dangerous Drugs's key, the burden is billion time.. for now im tired... since end of March..

For Motivation..

im just a simple sederhana person.. yes, so many downfall.. yes, i cried for help to HIM, mummy daddy, i frustrated with myself and i fixed it for the next time and move on to the next target.. i dont want to be the best.. i just try my best, so that im not regret in future.. sometime its not enough, but HE give the reward later on.. dont you think so.. will be 7 months and InsyaAllah continue till GOD knows when.. i love my career.. and i love this song.. yes, you and you can be a champion.. you dont have to be champion for anyone, just for yourself.. to prove to yourself.. you can stand after the fall..

memory note: i just wanna make my daddy mummy proud.. and i know he was crying the day i received the degree scroll and the award.. and i knew he was proud the day i received the medal from MPS.. my dua always for him.. always..

foot note: im locum today.. nice... :)

End of June @_@

Assalammualaikum..

its been a while...so many things happened...too fast, sometime pretty hard to breath...persistently....

1) ward inspection...4 reports still pending...going to add 1-2 reports tomorrow..

2) so many cancer patients in the ward...and i have to fake the smile and hold the tears...

3) Forensic Exam...this morning...only able to open the book 2 days before the exams...too busy with kerja hakiki...even all my FRPs gave time, but still slides need to be done, case need to be follow up...hopefully went smoothly...thats all i can dua..

4) leaved days approved...claims hours and annual leaves...July and August...bought the flight ticket mcm beli tiket bas aje...but i am proud as it come from my own titik peluh..

friend: i wish you are sick!

girl: u r so bad friend.. why?

friend: so that you can slow down, and see things that you missed..

girl: i just missed my dad..

foot note: yes, so serabut, but see the car, somehow i smile...for 5 minutes of my life..

do i make daddy proud?

everyday.. till the day he died.. even after he died, you make him proud..